3 MORE DAYS....

On Wednesday February 10th sometime, we'll officially be "PUPO" for our TWW (pregnant until proven otherwise).  I'm excited, but at the same time I'm scared of being let down again.  We've been through the negative tests time and time again, we've been through the ectopic, we've been through the miscarriage, but an IVF embryo transfer we have not yet experienced.  This is a little miracle already an equal portion of us both, and I don't know how I'll feel to not have this little tiny piece of us not survive.  We will only be putting one embryo in on Wednesday, and nothing is a guarantee in this process.  I'm trying to remain calm and most importantly trying not to stress over what's to come, but I also see myself going into the mode where I'm emotionally beginning to protect my heart for future disappointment.  When people talk about infertility being an emotional roller coaster, I'm not quite sure that that statement actually begins to describe the process....it's only a fraction of the description in my own opinion.  
All I can ask for now is another miracle, and hope that all the stars will finally aline for us in this journey.