After the storm, the sun will shine

Yesterday I decided for myself that enough was enough.  I can't continue to wait for this miscarriage to happen naturally because it's only damaging my emotions further.  I decided to speak to my doctor last night who approved me this morning for one last ultrasound.....which I went to this afternoon and the result was no different then a week ago.  I needed that last ultrasound to confirm for me emotionally that it's okay to give up on this pregnancy and to take the misoprostol pills.  I cried as all my nurses hugged me and gave me encouragement to not give up and left the doctor office to grab my 5 prescriptions (antibiotics, pain killers, misoprostol, etc) and made my way back to work for the remainder of the day.  So to give a little education on what misoprostol is, it's basically a drug used to start labor or induce abortion.....not something I physically could give myself without that second and last ultrasound.  It will begin to take effect within 2-4 hours of taking with minor cramping, which will lead to heavy cramping and bleeding within 4-6 hours (basically going into labor to pass all tissues inside of you including the fetus) to having a full bore miscarriage.  Pain will last for sometime depending on your case.  I will then have to repeat the process and take it again in 2 days to ensure that all tissue has passed so as infection doesn't occur.  This is a pretty scary thing for me, but far less scary then surgery.  This will happen in the privacy of my own home hopefully without any complications (which unfortunately can occur).  Emotionally so far I'd like to think that I'm doing okay.  I think that having a second ultrasound really helped me accept that there's no longer a viable pregnancy and it's time to throw in the towel.  I guess the first step to healing is acceptance, so I'm headed in the right direction right?  Baby steps.  However, I can say the last week hasn't been easy....I've had multiple friends post photos on social media of their own progress within their happy healthy pregnancies, and even 3 (YES THREE) "I'm pregnant" announcements.  Those were all tough to swallow, but I need to put myself in their shoes.....they're happy and proud and want to shout it from the rooftops as I would want to if I were them.  
I'm so thankful for those who have reached out with words of love and support via texts, emails, posts, etc have all been so heart warming.  For those who sent flowers and even a dozen gourmet cupcakes.....not sure how I'll eat them ALL LOL, but those gestures of kindness we're very thankful for.  We have the best family and friends in the world, and in times like this it really shines through to us.  We can only try to hold our heads up and think positive after this all passes.  Thank you everyone from the bottom of our hearts.