October: Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month

"Each and every day in communities across America, expectant moms will feel their baby’s first kick, parents will listen to their newborn’s first cry, and families will celebrate the birthday of a healthy baby.

Also each and every day approximately 13 babies will be lost to SIDS and other sudden unexpected infant deaths, more than 70 new parents will have listened sadly their stillborn baby’s silence, and countless lives will be lost to miscarriage.

I never thought that I would experience miscarriage, let alone suffer from infertility. However, I know that I'm not alone - my journey is similar to so many other's across the country and all over the world. It's a topic that most don't talk about because they're scared, frightened, or even embarrassed about. Please just do this one thing for me, if you've experienced any of this loss yourself, please reflect on your feelings and remember your baby. Every 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage, I am 1 in 4."

I posted this as my Facebook status today, I'm beginning to think that people are probably getting tired of seeing my infertility posts, however these are things that matter to me - and are extremely important to me as well as personal and dear to my heart. I share my story for so many reasons, and my heart gets a little fuller each time someone reaches out to me to share their own story that is similar.  I'm not alone.....they're not alone......you're not alone.  It's important to remember this, even I have a hard time remembering this myself sometimes when I feel like the most important people in my life have forgotten.

I'm recovering well from the miscarriage and looking into the future.  My heart is happy although the sadness still dwells.....I don't think it will ever go away.  My HCG level was finally a "zero" as of September 17th.  We now wait for my period to come on it's own (within the next 30 days).  We will then have a cycle of birth control, and then move right into our IVF cycle.  My heart couldn't be any fuller with all the love & support we've received.  I don't know if we could ever be able to show how thankful we are.  The future is bright.