Worst day ever..... 8-13-15

I wish I had good news to share from our ultrasound last Thursday the 13th, but unfortunately I do not.  It was confirmed that the baby stopped growing and that there was  no heartbeat.  Our happiness was crushed in one simple instant that we thought was going to bring us so much joy.  We were given three options, surgery (D&C), pills to help bring on miscarriage, or just wait naturally for the miscarriage to happen - we chose naturally.  It's been 4 days and nothing yet has happened, so we may be forced to chose another option.  At times I feel like I'm a really strong person, but then again there are a lot of moments where the emotions completely overtake me and my eyes feel up with tears and I can't help but feel weak and sorry for myself - I feel so broken.  We have to wait 2-3 healthy cycles before we can start to try again, and I'm not sure what our plan will be when that moment comes......but I do know that we're not ready to give up on our dream.  I'm not really sure what more I can write about right now, I just hope and pray that one day the pain of all of this will be replaced with a tiny bundle of joy.  Until then the constant roller coaster of infertility plagues us.